Can't Let You Go

You got me staring at my phone all night
Scrolling back to when it felt so right
Your name still pops up in my head
It's like you're living there rent-free instead

I hate how you're my favorite mistake
But I'd call you up if I felt the same ache
I swear I've moved on I swear I've grown
Then I hear your voice and I'm back to zone

I can't let you go it's toxic I know
You're the high I chase even when I'm low
I'm hooked on the pain addicted to the lies
You're the ghost that I can't exorcise

Yeah I blocked your number but I still check twice
Hoping you'll text me just to feel alive
I tell my friends I'm good I don't miss your face
But every Friday night it's your name I taste

It's stupid how I'm holding on to scraps
Even though I know we're nothing but a trap
You're the wound that I keep picking at
But I'd still run back if you called me back

I can't let you go it's toxic I know
You're the high I chase even when I'm low
I'm hooked on the pain addicted to the lies
You're the ghost that I can't exorcise

I'm out with someone new but it's not the same
They don't hit like you they don't play your game
You're a bad tattoo stuck under my skin
I lose every time but I still let you win

I can't let you go it's toxic I know
You're the high I chase even when I'm low
I'm hooked on the pain addicted to the lies
You're the ghost that I can't exorcise

You're the habit that I'll never break
The fix I need no matter what it takes
I know it's over but I'm stuck on repeat
Caught in the cycle where love and pain meet