Hiding Scared

I've been trying to breathe underwater
I've been trying to hide cause I'm scared
Confusing which is one from the other
Cause it doesn't mean so much in the end

"It doesn't mean so much," I whisper while I breathe
I'm sorry that I made you come with me through all of this
Life got me a kinda different sense of reality
You'll never know for sure what's happening inside of me
There's something you should know
I kinda find it hard to forget and let it go
Things change, time flies, there's still some melted snow
I drown in the waters of my own tears
I break my bones while carrying the weight of my own fears
I can't let you in
But I know that I can't let that kind of people win
They're just around the corner, darling, cause they live in me
Memories, heartaches and weapons, they're all the same thing
Anxiety here creeping in my sleep

Just look through the glass (I've been trying to breathe underwater)
And you'll see what's next (I've been trying to hide cause I'm scared)
The past is in the past
But any day it can come back
(Cause it doesn't mean so much in the end)

It always happens the same, it's just so seventeen
Looking through these old glasses, Murphy's law so clear
Her voice is in my head, always repeating, repeating
Her smirk is in my mind, it got me thinking
Will you love me and leave me?
Will you tell me how I'm perfect and just break me into pieces?
Will you use what I can offer and then
Say I'm an idiot, say nobody will see me, and
Say nobody will love me, just cause I broke
Your expectations and your image of me?
And I know you're not like her, or any of them
But I just think I'm not enough, that I don't worth the fight
Tell me you understand, that you will stand
And face all of the lies I listen in my mind
(I've been trying to hide cause I'm scared)

Just look through the glass
And you'll see what's next
The past is in the past
But any day it can come back
(Cause it doesn't mean so much in the end)



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