in my own game

I lost
I don't know how I lost
The little girl I was before I told her she will never be enough
I'm not enough, no
I thought that time
Would paste the pieces of my heart
But all it did was make me realize that
I'm that one who keeps them all apart
And I'll fall apart again
This game I'd never say I played, I lost
It took six weeks
For me to fall back to my knees
And see my happiness was on a lease and I was released
And I can't believe that I almost feel relieved
This game I'd never say I played, I need
Shame
Of knowing I still dream your name
And how those dreams are just a window frame
And I'm to blame 'cause I became a mole in my own game
And all I'd never say sounds all the same
I'm dancing, I'm winning, my doorbell keeps ringing
I'm singing my sweet little lies
I'm answering prayers I'll wanna say later
Betraying my odds one more night
The trance I'm in blinds me, my friends try to find me
I'm scared that they'll make me feel loved
The fences around me will dance and will drown me
I know me, I know me, I know that I shouldn't be lost
I know
I lost, 'cause I still dream your name
I lost
I still dream your name, I lost