Revival

My ex called me the other day, but I hit decline; I was getting high
She text me too but I ain't reply- I was busy crying; chasing suicide
How many times I attempt?
Well only once- but that's still one too many
Not able to live with my regrets
And if you know me then you know I got plenty
I was plotting on an ending, didn't know if I was ready
Double F to February, shit is getting scary
Solidified how I'm feeling at that party Quis had on Ferry
Was I crossfaded? Very, thought that shit was temporary
But that was 'til I saw my fairy
We had a heart to heart that night and that shit was so heavy

So tell me what the fuck I'm supposed to do
Feel so emotional, and I'm still not over you
Told you 'bout Deathbed Blues and my album, and you started crying
Hugged me tight, as you broke down apologizing
A guilty conscience, cause you just can't love me I guess
But I can't fathom that concept
Swear that shit's making my mind stretch
And it shows, just look at all these stupid hoes
They say the way that I feel for you is goals
And those feelings never left
Shame on me, I tried to lie for my ex

But that ain't the reason we ended
You couldn't handle me regardless and that is a fendi
Even tried to keep me on a leash after you fucking left me
Bitch I'm single- don't ask me who I'm kissing, I will never ever mention
Yeah I won't say her name, but I tried to do my thing
With this thick poetic mami out in Linden, and I savour my decision
Swear that shit felt so infinite, and so intimate
Plus it sharpened up my writtens
I love her female energy, man it gives me precision

So spark the spliff and celebrate my accomplishments
The album's done but I probably ain't even dropping it
Y'all claiming y'all wanting it
Another underrated gem up in my catalogue again
Well I'm tryna get it how I live
Ma tried to kick me out the crib
She wasn't having all this shit
Still tryna be her better kid
But I'm not a kid anymore
With those restrictions I can't live anymore
Ain't tryna leave, I'm just tryna be
The greatest man you've ever witnessed before
And emphasis on the word "greatest"
That's what I am now watch when I make it
Swear all these haters they got me mistaken
Front like I'm basic, these niggas is brainless
But this here is my revival
I guess I'm still striving to live better
And please don't ever be scared of my death
I promise that I'll live forever