numb to the pain

Yeah yeah yeah
Lost in my head I can't escape
Nah I'm lost
Numb to the pain numb to the pain yeah
Numb to the pain I'm to deep in

I've been poppin' pills just to feels again
I don't wanna feel I'm numb to the pain
Everything around me fallin like tha rin
Tryna fix my heart but I'm numb to the pain
Sippin' on this drink hope it clears my brain
Lost inside the high I'm numb to the pain
Numb to the pain yeah numb to the pain
Everything's a blur I'm numb to the pain

Another day another pill I'm just tryna cope
Faded off the drugs tryna balance on a rope
Got demons in my head tellin' me there's no hope
I'm runnin' but it feels like I'm stuck in a place
Lookin' in the mirror I don't recognize my face
Who am I?What's real?What's fake?
Lost my soul now I'm tryna fill the space yeah
I'm drowning in this bottle chasing every high
But every time I wake it's a new low to find
It's like I'm playin' with death flirtin' with the end
But somehow the numbness keeps me comin' back again yeah
Again again
Comin' back again yeah

I'm walking through the night don't know where to go
Feeling so empty but I don't let it go
Every step I take just leads to more despair
I'm here but I'm lost like nobody's there

I can't feel a thing yeah
But it's better than the hurt better than the sting yeah
I keep runin' from the truth but it's pullin' me in
Feelin' like I'm lost in the smoke that I'm in yeah

I've been poppin' pills just to feels again
I don't wanna feel I'm numb to the pain
Everything around me fallin' like tha rain
Tryna fix my heart but I'm numb to the pain
Sippin' on this drink hope it clears my brain
Lost inside the high I'm numb to the pain
Numb to the pain yeah numb to the pain
Everything's a blur I'm numb to the pain

This nights are gettin' longer thoughts are gettin' deep
Suffocating silence I can't even sleep
I'm tryna fight it off but the high's pullin' strong
These drugs are temporary but te pain is life-long
So I cahse another hit lookin' for escape
But every step I take just leads me to the same place
I'm spiralin' down can't break it free
The numbness got a hold it's destroyin' me

Tried to call for help,but the words don't come
The weight on my chest leaves me feeling numb
I'm sinking in dark can't find my way
Hoping that tomorrow feels less like today
I'm runnin' in circles can't catch my breath
Every choice I make feels closer to death
I want to let it go but I'm too afraid
Stuck in the mess that I've always made

This isn't what I wanted but it's all I've got
Memories of better days,I've nearly forgot
Every heartbeat's hollow every breath's a chore
I'm alive but I'm dying can't feel anymore