Onwards and Upwards

The doctor says I'm going through it
But what the hell do they know
When someone says that I can't do it
I go and give 'em all a show

When they say I might not manage
I'll make them understand
They think their words can do some damage
I'll show them who I am

But when I wake up feeling weaker
It's driving me insane
Time is money, mine is cheaper
Cuts me deeper, yeah

I know all the pieces of my body
Why do they fail me now
The thought of tomorrow's getting foggy
And who's there to blame
And where do I aim to go now

I thought the clock would never run out
Now time has turned to dust
But seeing it now, I could manage
The punishment for us

I see the paintings that we made
Of you and me combined
So rest your aching bones around me
Won't let the fates decide

I just keep praying that you were staying
And it was I that had to go
Reverse the judgement, show me the purpose
Tell me the reason so I know

Why is the future so uncertain
We played by all the rules
Watching the people we grew in to
Who we could have been
What more is there to give up

Empty mirrors conquering me
What's the point of surviving defeat
Losing power, losing faculty
What's the point if life is defeat

I might be broken but not abandoned
(Hungry but it's still full)
Running to seed, but firmly planted
(Leaving still finds a way)
Take all my sun and all my shadows
Something's left behind
(Change comes, our love still stays)
Somebody somewhere sees a ripple
I know it's okay
The waves left behind me still grow