It Didn't Turn Out How I Expected It to Turn Out

I'm definitely proud of that first records and
I don't have any regrets about anything, erm
And I'm proud of myself for being me
Through out everything, erm
And I, I learnt valuable lesson and I
I got a lot stronger as a person, you know
I, you can't really knock me over with a feather anymore
You can still make me cry pretty eazy
But that's not a sign of weakness or anything

But I, I kinda feel like
Oh, you didn't have to be so sad about everything, you know
I mean in my head, my agenda was
Okay, you know, that that everyone was now gonna know me
And understand me, and be my friend
And I was gonna be able to
Walk into a room and not feel so shy
Because everyone was gonna know
What kind of person I was
And how I was feeling inside

So that was kind of what I was thinking about then
And uhm, it didn't turn out how I expected it to turn out
Because it was very difficult to find that
Instead of actually becoming very understood and excepted
I became so widely misunderstood for a while
And I feel so unexcepted
That uhm, it really screwed my head for a while
It really really did, I mean
I am a very very sensitive person
I was miserable and I'm not very
I'm not an extremely social creature
And I was definitely not want then, erm
And I was a very sad person then

And I was having a lot of trouble of handling things, erm
I, I look back and I would never want to go back to that period of time
Ever, hmm.