Shoulda Coulda Woulda

At night when I close my eyes, I'm dreaming up another way to escape
From the pain that's killing me, got way too much on my plate
And the worst of it is you're not here to comfort me
I shoulda known it wouldn't last too long, we were both in different places
And our friends never got along, so eventually we had to face it
Now you're gone and I regret we didn't work it out

All because she found it, the message that I wrote to my ex-girlfriend
And the worst part is I promised her I'd never do it again
But I broke that promise, though I thought it was harmless, I was wrong regardless

I shoulda told her that I still had feelings
I coulda showed her that our love was the real thing
I woulda made it alright, but all I got is shoulda coulda woulda's in my life
I shoulda never let her break
Wish I could take it back but now it's too late
I woulda changed her mind, now all I got is shoulda coulda woulda's in my life

Shoulda left it in the past, coulda saved a lot of tears and heartbreak
Woulda cleaned up the mess I made, instead I'm living with my greatest mistake
I destroyed the only woman that I ever loved
I can't blame her for the things she said, I shoulda listened to what mama told me
With all the shit that my father did, he ended up being sad and lonely
Now I don't know if I'll ever find love again

And it's all because she found it, the message that I wrote to my ex-girlfriend
And the worst part is I promised her I'd never do it again
But I broke that promise, though I thought it was harmless, I was wrong regardless