If I Were Honest

It's as honest as you'll find me.
With a pen in my hand.
I'm a liar and I'm drowning.
Under the mess that I am in.

I keep on wishing that the rain would stop falling on my face.
So this is what it feels like.
So this is how it hurts now.
So this is how it's going to be.

You won't even say a word.
And I'll keep lying to myself.
It's been so many years,
So why on earth stop now?

And there was something hidden in your eyes.
That made me feel like this time, this time.
This time could be different.
And I could finally change.

I can't keep trying this.
I can't keep lying
Like it's all that I have left.
But it's all that I have left.

You're such a hero as you save yourself
And watch the world just burn to hell.
With all you swore you loved
And everything that's simple simply fades away.
Even you can't save me now.
So save me now.

It's as honest as you'll find me so don't miss your chance.
So this is what it feels like.
So this is how it hurts now.
So this is how you're going to be.

I won't even say a word.
I'll just keep lying to myself.
It's been so many years,
So why should we stop now?

Just admit that I kind of know you.
Just admit that we might be better off.
And for a change I will try to be honest.
And admit that I never was.

Don't smile at me
For I know who you really are.
In your hands a thousand keys
To a thousand broken hearts.

You can ask me for an answer.
You can simply pass me by.
You can call me a liar but I swear to God I'm right.
I swear I'm right. I swear I'm right.