When the Walls Go Down

Lord, if you don't help me I can't get through this
I can't
Lord, I'm too old for games
Foolish wisdom
And I'm tired of rhetoric
Meaningless rhetoric that never changes things
Lord, just help me
Help me

I was feeling god's pain
And I've never had anything that's been any worth to god
In my fifty years that wasn't born in agony, never, never
Dead empty
And I know that sermons won't do it
I know that revelation won't do it
Covenant won't do it
I know now, oh my god do I know it

Until I'm in agony
Until I'm in anguish over it
I'm preaching sermons
Oh god

I broke down, and I wept and I mourned
Does it matter to you at all?
I can't handle this
I can barely make it as it is

Little by little you're losing me, you're almost caught
The love with Christ
People I know that were my friends
I've seen them go one by one, some of my closest friends

You're changing from what you were
You're changing
Little by little somethings happening to you
Will he bring you to your knees?
That's all the devil wants to do
Take the fight out of you, and kill it
So you won't in prayer anymore
So you won't weep before god anymore
Go to hell
No weeping, not another pray, it's all ruined, no nothing
This is life and death, and the walls go down and ruin sets in

Where's the tears?
Where's the mourning?
Where's the confessing?
The love of Christ?
The agony of gods heart
We... have sinned!!!