It Don't Matter

Sittin in traffic another day of feeling nothing
Trying to find something
I guess it's back to huffin' paint and model glue
Oh how I die when I look
At you smilin' lovin' life and all I know is blue
Rainy days and cold stares broken love affairs
Everything's beautiful as long as I ain't there
I guess I wasn't meant to crack a smile
Who cares?
I think I'll go to sleep for a while now
I'm barely livin' in my skin
Depression's my only friend

And I don't know where I am heading
Tryin' to forget where I've been
And I'm so sick of lying
God please show me that silver lining
Cuz I've heard tell
And I'm not well
My heads full of hell
And this world's a jail, but

And it don't matter, and I don't care
I let my pain into the air
'Cause everything good's over there
And everything here's hard to bear
And it don't matter and I don't care
I let my pain into the air
Cuz everything good's over there
And everything here's hard to bear

And as the pain begins to displace
Had it to ear level with this place
You see it on my face: a state of suspended grace
Gradually I erase, and find comfort in the sickest womb
I might be present but not in the room

To whom it may consume
Melting ensembles, bleeding chellos
Running through Bordellos drama
Like Othello hidin' out from Poncharello
Dead off in the Median
Fallin apart like usual handin' out flyers to my funeral

So they say that life's a play
And that all the world's a stage
Then for another part I pray
The show ends the same way everyday
And my heart carries the pain
Of a brain I can't explain
Am I insane?
Am I insane?

And it don't matter, and I don't care
I let my pain into the air
'Cause everything good's over there
And everything here's hard to bear
And it don't matter, and I don't care
I let my pain into the air
'Cause everything good's over there
And everything here's hard to bear

And everything good is gone
And everything good is gone
And everything good is gone
And everything bad is here
And everything bad is here
And everything bad is here

It doesn't really matter now does it
And it don't matter, and I don't care
I let my pain into the air
'Cause everything good's over there
And everything here's hard to bear

And it don't matter, and I don't care
I let my pain into the air
'Cause everything good's over there
And everything here's hard to bear, yeah
Everything good's over
Is hard hard to bear
Everything is hard to bear
And everything here's hard to bear
Everything is hard to bear