How Long Has This Been Going On

I was taught that I ought not to expose my inner senses
Had no plan for a man, I was full of self-defenses
Now I feel that I really should face the consequences
My philosophic search has left me in the learch
I must find why my mind is behaving like a dancer
What's the clue to pursue? For I have to have the answer

I could cry salty tears, where have I been all these years?
"Is it fun or should I run?"
How long has this been this going on?
There were chills up my spine and some thrills I can't define
"Does it show? And who would know?"
How long has this been going on?

Oh, I feel that I could melt, into Heaven I'm hurled
I know how Columbus felt finding another world
"Can I trust how I feel?"
Is this my Achilles?
Look at me, I'm all at sea
"How long has this been going on?"

This is grand, this is great, I'm in such a lovely state
Can one kiss do all of this?