An Instant Death

I was born and I died
Happened right before your eyes
And still you wanted something more than silence, out of me
I was hiding
I've been lying sick in bed and trying
Now, it's too late for perfection
You won't see my face again

Last night, I was struck, paralyzed
With blood all lost yet imprisoned inside
A voice in the choir blending in
What's the point of singing these old standards again?
Just keep circulating

I was touching my green lover
When her roots broke from the stem
She's moving out her parents' house and never returning
So I asked her for a signal
That she love me for sure
And she spelled it out in letter blocks
Placed it right there in my head

Then she kidnapped and reminded me
Of all the grief I had caused
Like time, you can't stall
Now, it's punishing us all

Midnight, stung asleep in a web with a dream of escaping
Start new in the morning
Yellow leaves strung from trees bend and snap and conceive
Are you happy?

All these sights and sounds go unrecorded
Except a door crashing now in its frame
And an egg falling now in a dark filthy hallway
In a bleak, helpless sky, I saw the sunrise

And I watched that little baby
Raise his hand to throw a snowball
Singing, "I must kill my father so that the sorrow can end"
And he crawled back in the water
For a breath that he took and stretched
'Cause every time you discover is like being born again

Looking through some color pictures
I never felt so much joy
When I reach an understanding
(Hoo!)

(Ah-ah-ah-ah, ah-ah-ah-ah)
(Ah-ah-ah-ah, ah-ah-ah-ah)