To Feel This Way (Extended Version)

A million stars were circling in the world above my head
As I drifted back in memory to all the things we said
Turning my attention to the pain that I denied
It was never my intention to ever say, "goodbye"

Maybe, I could have won this war
Maybe, I could have changed
If only wisdom courted me and not this fear and shame
The ties that bind and bless the soul have bound me up in chains
Your love cuts through my weakened heart and memories twist the blade

I thought of you and nothing more, I needed nothing else
I cried the day you left me
I should never have allowed myself to feel this way

I wonder where you sleep at night, I wonder where you've been
I envy all your family, I envy all your friends
The answer looms in front of me and though I cannot see
I believe the ancient promises, I believe that I am free

But love comes as a great offense, like innocence betrayed
I don't think you'll recognize me on the other side of day
But then, I never felt this way

A million eyes were watching from the world above my head
And I swear they saw right through me and the life that I had led

The stranger enters quietly, he braves the heat and cold
Through a deep, dark, haunted passageway that leads into the soul
Let no one be mistaken, death makes memories of us all
It's the purpose that confounds me
I should never have allowed myself to feel this way

To feel this way
To feel this way
To feel this way
(To feel)