Homesick Sonnets

Sonnet I
In times of warmth
When love and comfort dear
Have cast their blindless light upon my star
How is it
That I wish to disappear
And find myself again
Back where you are?
Is it that home is only home with you?
And how then did you earn your house that name
When judged by years it's relatively new?
My home is not my home here just the same
And so I will be happy as I must
Although without you
Sugar tastes as dust

Sonnet II
What sweetened torture I endure each day
When hour after hour passes by
And still I feel so very far away
From that which I desire
Yes, thee and I
Yet rosy is my sadness
For ere now
I never had pined after someone's touch
Nor eyes
Nor lips
Nor hands
Nor raven brow
And here I am
Missing almost too much
My paradox is that I weep at this
While being glad I have a love to miss

Sonnet III
Heartsick have I been
This long, long day
Heavy is my disposition
Yet, I smile
And try my best to hide away
The pain
The life
The love I can't forget
Sorry am I
For the ones I fool
They ask for nothing save my company
And yet I cannot seem to break the rule
That sayeth once I love
Twice bound I'll be
Alas, I often slip
And to them show
That far away
My heart desires to go

Sonnet IV
It seems only a moment past
I listened to the dulcet tone
Of thy too far off voice at last
But now I find myself alone
Yet, my eyes closed
I am not so
For underneath my fingertips
I feel your flesh
Caressing slow
And hold thy tongue between my lips
Past caring how forlorn it seems
I'll sleep to meet you in my dreams

Sonnet V
A cold wind ravages my mind
As though I were
A blade of grass
Which, rained upon
Has been made blind
And waits now for the storm to pass
But, strange
The closer cometh I
To travel's end and your embrace
The darker seems to go the sky
The further off seemeth your face
'Tis trying
When in pain, to rhyme
'Tis harder still to measure time