The End Is Where We Begin

I'm very aware, why you want me here
To write you sweet nothing's, that play in your ear
You look to the music, when you need a friend
So let's start our story, when we reach the end

I'm a little bit ticked off, confused to be honest
That I let my insecurities take hold of my harness
And force me into my stable, away from all of my friends
For massive periods of time, hoping my life might end
This isn't how I should live, because I'm better than broken
Just a little less solid from all the words that I've spoken
Giving you tact that you requested back in 2010
When it was cool to complain about how you didn't have friends
But now Pop has shifted over from Alternative to Rap
So it's cooler to smoke weed and Instagram a frap
Than to go to a college or get a job and a life
So please give me a second to make sure all this is right
You want me to save face with all the friends that I lost?
Put our life on a record and give it out for a cost
But if I offer it for free, you turn your backs away from me
And leave me here alone just singing in my lonely company
And now I'm lost... Okay, just give me a second
I think I missed the part where everyone learns a lesson
What started with a Coup, was followed by Carpe Diem
A Year later Shadows are the only thing I'm seeing
These Faces in my head caused a twist in my Fate
Making room for the Outcast to come to the stage
And I think I made it past all of my deathly paranoia
Now welcome one and all to my personal Metanoia