By The Time You Read This (I Will Already Be Dead)

By the time you read this
I will already be dead
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It is only to be read
By the time you read this
I will already have been killed
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But notify my next of kin

Self administrate your estate
Pick up the pieces and give them away
Let them take all the things they want and dispose of yourself
Photographs and notes go into the sink
Under all the hot water the faucet could give
Now my dreams are just running ink going down the drain

By the time you read this
I will already be gone
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But realize what you have done
By the time you read this
It will already be true
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Just understand what you made me do

By the time you read this
I will have gone the way that good men go
When they go bad
Where they go bad
By the time you read this
I will have gone to the place where good men go
Where they go wrong
When they go wrong

By the time you read this
I will already have been changed
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After I've experienced maximum pain
No longer good to anyone
And never would be again
Know that I spent my final days
Endlessly tying the endless loose ends

One last look around the place
The sun shining into empty rooms
For the final time, I close the door that will open for someone new
The only change I make before I leave is in the bedroom of my dreams
Where I cover walls in deep blue paint
Rather than my blood and my brains, oh