I Can't Start Now

Too many late nights, goin' too deeply
Into her reasons for leavin' me here, like I don't know why

Thought those blue eyes could complete me
But I filled them instead with the ghosts in my head
I'm never satisfied

'Til the first tear falls
Spend my days now dodgin' memories,
shufflin' my dreams of what we could've been, in another time

In places we've known, I sit by the payphone,
then I warm to my theme with the burn of the Beam
And build my tower of dimes,

But I still can't call

I hid it all with pride, while time was on my side,
From the echoing alley to the sun-kissed valley,
I made it through somehow
I kept it all inside, never let it slide
And I can't start now

Well I was stand-up, loved a showdown
Kept my eyes on the road, never saw what I owed
'Til the price was high

I heard her sweet lips whisper "slow down"
Then my heart hid inside while my old foolish pride
Made those blue eyes cry

And the rain came down...

I've played it wise too long, to say that I was wrong
From the kisses in the Palais to the sun-kissed valley,
I've broken every vow
I never used three words where two would be enough
And I can't start now

And every new day dawns to beat me
I'm on the ropes, but still I'm hangin' in
But for us to survive, I feel I'd be taking a dive
And I can not win

I hid it all with pride, while time was on my side
From the echoing alley to the sun-kissed valley,
I made it through somehow
But she had made me start to open up my heart
And I can't stop now