White Flag

Crawling through the black, a fat rat trap
Soul is as good as sold
You're as attractive as the clap
And now you just do what you're told

All your fantasies are code
If you trace them back
They show the ways you did not grow
I have no more fights left to throw

This isn't who I wanted to be
I'm a bad person
I look at myself everyday
I'm like, 'what happened?'
I thought you had something to say

Hey there rebel yell, you do that teenage noise so well
Could that be cause you just laid right where you fell
Can they tell you're just a shell
Oh well, I'm hellbound

So now I'm making all the right sounds
Holding it down
Hearing my name all over town
Keeping my feet firmly on the ground
How?

This isn't who I wanted to be
I'm a bad person
I look at myself everyday
I'm like, 'what happened?'
I thought you had something to say

I thought you were different
I thought you weren't playing this game
I surrender, I've been had
This is my white flag

You can't see me, you can't
If I leave I will come back

I see you, I break in two
I need something new and I don't know what to do
I see you, I break in two
I hit the bottom and fall through

I am so alone, I can't communicate
My heart is full of holes I cannot satiate
I want so bad the balance I've never had