Sol Niger Within

Beginning Of The End Of Extraction (Evolution Slow Down)

I'm seraph. I'm snake.
controlled. pre-programmed entrapped soul.
extraneous powers conditions my mind.
I'm vermin. I'm fake.
causality ignores the persecutory illutions of free will.
morality justifies no cause.
beyond reason: we eat. reproduce and die.
a genetically conditioned psychomotor machine.
I'm seraph. I'm snake. an evolutionary mistake.

entering hellbound dominion. acid rain.
human mortification. hades glows red-hot.
howling mind accelerates. trapped in this time-knot.
place there is none: we go backward and forward. and there is no place.
horror or infinity. internal draught
floor a tempest. sanitorium?
who are you? why are you here?
no chemical aid. no keys. no doors. walls or locks.
wing-dipped phoenix. ashes: you asshole!

immolate reliance: suffocate defiance.
cardboard figure. skeletal man. in venomous confinement.

new dawning of fate. no exit from this torment. sickness and hate.
all in vain. everlasting suffering in pain.

constricting steel headbands. adrenaline boil.
temperature rise. pressure succeed.
in crushing my skull. destroying my seed.
divine epiphany of pyrocatharsis.
internal ascension to skyward domains.
preparation for rebirth.

my existence precedes the origin of the universe
I, deliverer of god. organizer of solar systems.
heaven is lasting. earth is enduring.
i am forever and you are of me.

sweating. swirling on sheets of torture beach.
malignant cancer objects. impinge upon space.
euclidean nausea. dimensions outraged.
(limbs disjointed with iron hook. eyes torn from sockets.
flesh torn apart. scraped off them bones. bent out of shape.)
trilogy of life faces sea of death.
demons begin their march. down. down. deeper down. down the brain stem.
bending the kundalini sacrum.
ant out of my behind and climb back in.
tibetan goddess ral gcing ma:
show me your spine and everything's fine.

I sing in colors.
my mother is god. my father is god. my brothers. my sisters. all are god.
god to the right. god to the left. god overhead (god o.d./UFOria overdose.)
christ-encounter of the fourth kind.

battle within begin. life after life. death after death.
suffer. die. resurrect. all those karmas in my face.
further and further away from grace.
cut to pieces. death house walls me in.
bodily dismemberment. renewal of organs. celestial ascent.

blown out of proportion. perfect-wrong
heathen distortion. in diabolical disguise.
three-dimensional evaporation. melting ground.
liquid skies downpouring. crumbling into chaos. mind alive?

avoiding reality. we dare not to face the truth.
we all lie to ourselves. immersed in deceit.
biochemical apparatus. screened out from truth.
exceedingly stupid. slender debris.
in ignorance we are condemned to decease.

parallel dimensions: on frequencies sublime.
hidden for millenia to earthbound mind. girded with lies.
reality until now. delusional abbreviation.
unearthly codes deciphered at last.
an eternal presence. a moment without a past.
reality transfigured. still the same.
in deafening silence. all things flow.
a pulsating vessel. presence: rising. falling. in and out.
the eschaton is calling from the end of time.

they can't fool me. wearing human faces. they're nothing but resonance
frequencies escaping the grasp of my mind.
waveforms are spinning out of control.
leaking into parallel dimensions. my mind is turned inside out.
exteriorized mind. (perceptually overstimulated.) my insides are pouring
out.
bombardment from outside. (which is now my inside.)
unearthly thought waves overcharge my brain circuits.

not lost. but gone before.
deposited at the brink of time. across the borders of infinity.
atomized state. crystalized existence. linear-time ignored.
indescent wings take me home.
from within john wheelers hyperspace.
the secret disclosed. neither body nor radiation.
vanished to outside observers. those poor souls left behind.

...dibbacakkhu-pannacakkhu-samanta-cakkhu-buddhacakkhu-dhamma-cakkhu

god's eye point of view. neither to be born nor to perish. negation of
substance. impermanence of being. everlasting becoming. unconditional mind.
expressing absolute revelation of truth. manifested beyond the
trans-substantial >>i all being and nonebeing. neither mind nor buddha.
in an all-embracing immanent end-in-itself. paradoxes are unveiled.
contradictions collapses. where boundaries failed. plunging into the vortex
of darkness divine. entering the void where all things intertwine. this is
the existence of the non-existence of duality expressing the radiance of
ultimate reality.

it's too late now. over the brink of the interior gravitational abyss. i
spiral downwards.
inwards. torn apart into multiple i's. the totality of which i used to
perceive as the absolute self. all processes are rapidly slowed down.
contracting. dissolving. freezing out. tidal gravitational forces tend to
infinity. the godhead is pulling me beyond the swartzschild sphere. the
theoretical maximum value for potential.
spatio-temporality inverted. space and time are turned inside out.

i've become the nuclear image of eternity i'm the original stuff. all the
universes find their pattern in my being. for i'm the cosmic infinitesmal.
i'm the source. i'm the fountain. exploding in your face. (with a flick of
my wrist a new cosmos begins.) how glorious to be alive. be here with me now
in timeless micro-infinity.

reality now an oceanic flow of particles in everchanging patterns. panta
rei. undulating within the ultimate core of self. which is no-self. inside
this boundless thought wave. all is one and one is god. (truth is one. sui
generis)

everything is coming in waves and from all sides. nuclear. molecular and
cellular layers. modular wave-hierarchies. epi-phenomenon of the
ground-of-being of all other grounds-of-being. in a fractual involution. the
reversal of evolution. becoming is absolute. time is dying a slow death. the
eschaton is near. i'm into an ideational singularity: propelling towards the
neuro-galatic center, the transcendental nexus of self and world. a cosmic
junction where on a physical level: matter and anti-matter merge into each
other. into emptiness and on a psychic level god and self are inextricably
intertwined.

i'm imploding into MySelf. MyGod. oh. god. i'm home...

tathagata - cakkhuvinnanadhatu ...yathabhutam. yathabhutam. yathabhutam.
yathabhutam. yathabhutam...

Close encounters of the forth kind are by far the most frightening abductions of human beings by aliens. According to those who claim to have been
abducted, they're transported by a beam of light aboard a space craft; set up on an examination table surrounded by strange creatures, probed and prodded as
tissue and fluid samples are taken; and then returned to the point from which they were abducted. Most often with little or no recollection of what
happened. The one thing they know for certain is that minutes, even hours have passed that they can't account for. This form of amnesia is known as missing
time.

The first months, I couldn't seem to grasp, those black moments, holding me in a state of loss. Until one day, when it all caught up on me. After that, I
worked real hard for years at suppressing all abduction memories. Now that I remember it all, I'm scared to death almost all the time. I know they'll be
coming back for me again. They always come back.