Good Mourning

I grew up today
Alone on my high school bathroom floor
Listening to bands that make your heart break
Wishing that I hadn't stayed up so late

And I have to say that I've learned a lot
From the lessons that my father taught
I know
I've got aways to go

But I don't believe in ghosts
Or forgiveness
I think we should all suffer with our choices
Because dependency to get the best of me

I regret to say
That I take the same way to work everyday
I regret to say
And I spend my money in the worst ways

I wonder what I'll be like
When I'm 35
Will I even be alive
Cause everything looks better
In black and white
Well I've been changing my mind my whole life

Labored breath labeled here right in front of me
Voice in my head telling me to go and brush my teeth
Allegedly

I regret to say
That I take the same way to work everyday
I lack stability
But that's okay, that's okay

I wonder what I'll be like
When I'm 35
Will I even be alive
Cause everything looks better
In black and white
Well I've been changing my mind my whole life

I caught a cold
I felt a chill down the back of my spine
I watched my dreams come alive
Tonight
With some old friends of mine
I'll stand in line
For the things that I want that I need
The things that I think complete me