Shit Luck

Oh, I cried and sang
For the loss of my only father
My father, my father
And I categorized my emotions into lines
On a black piece of paper, of paper
I prayed to a god who's never, oh, answered
No answer, no answer
To dry the tears of my mother
My mother, my mother

I misplace failed acceptance of myself into others
I'm feelin' the guilt of being selfish, too selfish
Too tired for that compromise
I'll drown my confusion in a bottle of poison
For my thoughts to just stop
And I'll pick it up in the morning

As I spend time waitin' for that train to arrive
I'm tunin' that note just to pass the time
This shit luck won't last too long
But it's up to me to kick it up a notch

Oh, I'm scatchin' deep in this monotone beat
This paper-thin palette laid so meticulously
To see the stretch of red down my grey tainted neck
And I keep searchin' for the answer of why I keep breathing
When those consequences make my core rot so seamlessly
With that un-, unfailing tide
Of drownin' days, blacked out nights
Suffocating lungs and ill-fated strides

As I spend time waitin' for that train to arrive
I'm tunin' that note just to pass the time
This shit luck won't last too long
It's up to me to kick it up a notch

So baby, wipe those virgin tears from your cheek
Your innocence spent on a liar and a fake
But deep inside that broken, tattered corpse you know
This is not who you were meant to be

So spend your time waitin' for that train to arrive
And tune that note 'til it sounds just right
This shit luck won't last too long
But it's up to you to make it stop