You

Dear well, I probably shouldn't say your name
I just wanted to tell you that a lot of things have changed
The other day I found this letter that you wrote to me, so ima read it
I swear it's like the sweetest poetry
So look, you always saw the bright side of things
And you taught me to appreciate the nice silent things
Remember I was just a kid trapped and forgotten
But you believed in me, that'll never be forgotten
And you was older so your words spoke loud
As I look back at it now I gotta find you in that crowd
So what a mess, look at me with all the stress
If you ran into me now I'd probably never find happiness
We used to party but I never really drank
I just went into the bathroom and I poured it down the sink
And now I grab the bottle even tighter when I hold it
I gave my soul to you, but you turned around and sold it for your own life
I guess I'm being selfish now
But I got a lot of clout from this fucking rapping style
You told me that I changed, I'll admit it
But its strange cause I'm sitting thinking you the one to blame
So I hit you on your cell just to know it went to voicemail
So how we gonna communicate, I'll never know
I guess I gotta let it go

Don't cry just go to that place
You needed time so I gave you space
I'll wonder if I'll ever get to talk to you
I'm doing this for me yo, not for you And I just wanna know if you can hear me
So maybe turn it up, speak a little clearly
No matter how many songs I make
You gonna never hear me say that I made a mistake
And that I'm sorry from the bottom of my heart
You put up with a lot it was a problem from the start
And even if you took me back it wouldn't be the same
I'll even get a tattoo for you of your name
And you know I never meant to be an asshole
I guess it's greener where the other people's grass grows
But wait a minute, why you wonder if I'll stay committed?
I used to visit you when you was at your baby sitting
But now I need a chaperon to even get me through the day
The minute that you left I had so much to say
I never got the chance to even tell you that I loved you
Fuck you, now I only see you when I"m looking up above
You must be selfish to take your own life
What about me and the other people that I thought you liked
And now that you're gone sometimes I wanna do it too
I can't, I gotta stay here just to spite you
I'll write you when, damn I'm not like you
We all got demons I wish that you could fight too
You lost the battle and you tossed it in
But you're up there in the sky and I'm down without a friend

Do't cry just go to that place
You needed time so I gave you space
I'll wonder if I'll ever get to talk to you
I'm doing this for me yo, not for you