Feel Ya Pain

Another day another dollar, that I don't fucking got
Sold a bunch of records and I'm still broke
Couple bitches in my pocket
Couple kids that I love to death
So really what I got to be mad at?

My life is waking up to sunshine from darker scenes
History repeats itself
Spark a dutch, start to lean
My heart could buss, I wanna scream, reaching far extremes
Desperation
Bout to spark a fiend like Charlie Sheen
I stay stressed, paychecks are few and far between
I've worked for years, so I'ma persevere despite how hard it seems
I'm just a starvin' artist
I don't mark your dreams
Or talk at teens with garbage, see, I'm focused on a larger scheme
The scheme I'm focused on goes beyond just being paid
A culture born before the VMA awards and pop shit being played
Angel on my shoulder
Fighting what the demons crave
Presence felt and still respect myself when I leave the stage
But in recent days I'm left in hell with seeds to raise
And can't seem to trade an honest living for a decent wage
I watch the local news, or on occasion read a page
Seen policeman's strays kill a kid when D's squeezed the gauge
Fuck is wrong with people?
We should be enraged
But the fact remains we act the same and aren't even phased
We'd rather drink away the pain and smoke the greenest haze
Lord if you exist please forgive me for my evil ways
They'd have us all believe the phrase 'Streets are paved with gold'
Disappointment left the pistol pointed, bout to take our souls
So as the paper folds I pray that I can take control
Before the present day becomes the days of old and ancient scrolls

I don't see the light, is anybody there?
I wanna leave this life, does anybody care?
Can anyone relate?
Do you feel the same?
Cause the only way I know I'm alive is feeling pain
When life becomes a struggle - I can feel your pain
Broke as fuck tryna hustle - I can feel your pain
Making doe but o double - I can feel your pain
That describes my own behavior, maybe I can motivate ya

Every night is sleepless
Cause everyday I'm broke
Bout to drown in debt, treading water, tryna stay afloat
I just listen to these politicians, taking notes
Wages don't see raises close to the rate of inflation's growth
I'd like to thank the snakes who post up in a masons cloak
They provoke the rage in this page full of famous quotes
I'd also like to aim the scope at em' as they approach
My logic is to find the positives in what I hate the most
My fans got a taste for dope, so here's a fatal dose
There's more to gain when it's pouring rain, absorb the pain and cope
Don't let it slow you down
Don't let it break your hopes
Make a toast to fakes and rub it in their face like shaving soap
Today I woke up to a note my baby mother signed
Then I was forced to read the words this evil bird had underlined
She said "I'm leaving you"
I've seen this view a hundred times
But if she thinks she'll take my son away, she's out her fucking mind!
We're gonna shine despite the turning of deceitful tides
Full of secret lies, beneath our pride, where the demons hide
If I could do it over, I'd still let the semen fly
Cause if I didn't, difference is, Kingston wouldn't be alive
And while she smokes my weed supply I'm here screaming
"Why the fuck do I even try? Bitch, leave the keys and slide!"
Reaching deep inside to find the strength I need to rise up from underneath this cunt's deceit
So be it, fine