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So I heard it from a friend
That there was this guy that I should talk to
So you let me in
Opened doors underneath a crucifix statue
So I explained to you
I was having troubles getting through
And I was thinking of my end
It was just the sky I kept looking to
You said "I'm on your side"
I thanked you and I cried
I almost died

I was making strides
I was showing up every Sunday
But I was still confused
About the pain that had invaded me
And I'm still wondering
If my souls worth it's money back
You assured me
That the congregation would hear me
They said "we're on your side,
There's an unconditional kingdom
That stands up high
And let's all believers in
Through the forgiveness of sins"

So I explained to you what was the cause of my suffering
See it was a while ago
There was an alleyway
And there was a group of them
When they hurt me
They whispered that the gays had to pay
When they beat me
All of my worth was taken away
See I needed you
And you know one of the lords the way through
And I was unfolded
I believed there was something he could do
But you just hung your head
And told me it was the door I needed to be going to
"Son there's just principles
I cannot be the one who helps you"

You said
"I'm not your side
You're probably paying for your sin
I don't understand your kind
It isn't mine"
Father your cold hearts a smoking gun
Your cross aint no where I want to hang my hope from
There's still something I half believe
And that's why I'm leaving this world behind me
See my sexuality don't have nothing to do with my integrity
When I get into that land
I'll lead with the one who wears the crown
He will say "I'm on your side
The side that's kind
Judge not what's right
In time you'll find
You left"