Lord Can You Help Me

Ok... y'all gotta lay back
Just lay back and listen to my story, you know?
Holup, lemme drink something real quick
You know... y'all just...
Y'all don't know why I'm the way that I am
But this is why... this what...
This is what I'ma explain. Holup. Holup
This the way that I am
Because, you know
I been moving all around the whole world my whole life and $h!7
You know? I don't...
Just lemme clarify this, yo

Uh
Now growing up across the globe made me lost in my mind
And as a kid, I felt like "criss-crossed" up in time
And I didn't realize it then, I never did notice
That it put a strain on my mind and kept me unfocused
Lord knows I just wanted a regular life
But two years, give or take a few, was never alright
Mama working all the time like my step-dad did
So they could bring us all the things they never had as a kid
We was always on the move and that's what made me unstable
Cuz I had to follow them, and go the places they'd go
Alone in this world, I couldn't grow with a friend
Every time in my mind I'm starting over again
And even though I had a lot of friends up til today
Like a privilege in life they all was taken away
And that's what led me to believe that I was weak in my mind
That's why I never showed the pain that I was keeping inside
It's like

Lord, can You help me? And wash away my sins?
Forgive me for the evil that I did. Why they jealous?
I did a little dirt in my life I keep embellished
But all I wanna hear now, the sounds of this and relish
Lord, can You help me? And wash away my sins?
Forgive me for the evil that I did. Why they jealous?
I did a little dirt in my life I keep embellished
But all I wanna hear now, the sounds of this and relish

Uh
See, as a child I never understood the meaning of life
I thought my parents were unfair and never treated me right
Cuz every time I moved away it left emotional scars
Had me activated like I'm a remote controlled car
But that was just the thoughts of an adolescent in fear
Now I understand they taught me 20 lessons a year
Blinded by the fact that I was asinine and insane
But still compelled by the ways the sun would shine in the rain
Bad dreams left me panicking and crying in pain
Cuz I didn't know the truth, I started lying in vain
A lot of things I did wrong that I'm determined to change
I'm on the right road but some be tryna swerve in my lane
Everybody wanna live my life, but take it from me
My life ain't everything that people try to make it to be
I'm tryna double up with what I got with less than a chance
And I pray to God that this ain't where I'm destined to land

Lord, can You help me? And wash away my sins?
Forgive me for the evil that I did. Why they jealous?
I did a little dirt in my life I keep embellished
But all I wanna hear now, the sounds of this and relish
Lord, can You help me? And wash away my sins?
Forgive me for the evil that I did. Why they jealous?
I did a little dirt in my life I keep embellished
But all I wanna hear now, the sounds of this and relish

I remember being broke without a dime to my name
Falling asleep every night while I was crying in shame
A silhouette of a man, to me, who could have been Jesus
Performed an exorcism on me and got rid of my demons
And if this'll be my last words I'm destined to write
I pray The Lord will be merciful and bless me tonite
And forgive me for my sins cuz I know that I need it
Every time I lied, stole and every time that I cheated
And anything else I did that's considered a sin
Temptation's sweet on the outside but bitter within
Like my Last Will and Testament, I'll leave you with this
Half of y'all will wish me well but I can see through your wish
And half of that half is jealous with malevolent minds
But I still hope y'all prosper and develop with time
Cuz if its anything I got at all it's something to prove
And I'm a desperate individual with nothing to lose!

Lord, can You help me? And wash away my sins?
Forgive me for tha evil that I did. Why they jealous?
I did a little dirt in my life I keep embellished
But all I wanna hear now, the sounds of this and relish
Lord, can You help me? And wash away my sins?
Forgive me for tha evil that I did. Why they jealous?
I did a little dirt in my life I keep embellished
But all I wanna hear now, the sounds of this and relish
Amen

So
So that's basically it
That's like the story of my life, you know?
You know
In case y'all wondering what I'm eating right now
I'm just eating Pringle's, man
Eating Pringle's and slamming down some chocolate
And drinking my Vanilla Coke
So, um
I hope everybody out there
Gets the message to this song
You know what I'm saying?
And we out... and we out... and we out