Laughing and Crying

Thoughts flow like an ocean liner
How do i gently let my feelings be known
I don't wanna be the one to say it
I don't wanna be the one to end it

I let it sit with me for weeks
Then suddenly decide today i'm letting go
I don't wanna say that it's not worth it
And i don't want to stay so vitriolic

And it makes me wanna laugh
It makes me wanna cry
It makes me wanna laugh
It makes me wanna die inside

I break the news with sudden feeling
An orchestra of silence fills the room
I don't wanna be the nasty bad guy
I don't wanna be the super villain

She acts so calm as if she really
Didn't give a fuck, well maybe it's too soon
I don't want to push the issue
But I thought we warranted a tissue or two

But it makes her want to laugh
It makes her want to cry
It makes her want to laugh
It makes her want to die inside

We meet up for a cup of coffee
For a couple of weeks
But it's clear we're finished soon
I don't wanna look you in the eye again
I don't wanna see you smiling anymore

And it makes me wanna laugh
It makes me wanna cry
It makes me wanna laugh
It makes me wanna die
It makes me wanna laugh
It makes me wanna cry
It makes me wanna laugh
It makes me wanna die