Sins

There is no peace and quiet
In the silence I am deafened
Screaming in my ear telling me to take back what I've done
The choices I have made they haunt me every time I close my eyes
But never do I let that show, I'm not the man you think you know

Take a look inside my head and you will see the sins
You thought I could never commit
Such a selfish decision made to keep me sane
Plays on my mind now every day

I am the product of the decision made
Back when i signed it all away
I can't forgive myself
Every day I say I will be okay
But not when writing word on page
Why can't it fade

This is my deepest, darkest moment
The reason I can never honestly say that I am alright
But look at me, I still breath
Even when the sadness takes it's hold on me
I still breath

I try to never let my problems get you down
So I just keep them to myself
This is the one time I won't lie
Help me escape my own mind

Come to me for help and I will gladly put out my hand
I contain all my demons so it's easy for me to understand
Not for one second do I ask you to listen to me instead
Because my punishment is to be silenced
Never speak of this again

If letting go was as simple as the words imply
I'd have gone through that process one hundred thousand times
But the pain of that day is like a scar that won't fade
Try hiding behind a mask as long as I have

I don't care in the end if this all fades away
Having coped for so long I know how to get through the day
Every day I say I will be okay
But not when writing word on page, why can't it fade?

I try to never let my problems get you down
So I just keep them to myself
This is the one time I won't lie
Help me escape my own mind

I am the product of the decision made
Back when I signed it all away
I'm not the man you think you know

I try to never let my problems get you down
So I just keep them to myself
This is the one time I won't lie
Help me escape my own mind