Becoming Finite

We used to walk together and when I was weak he would carry me.
Two become one set of footprints along the cold and raging sea.

But where were you? When I killed that cat.
Where were you? When I stabbed that back.
Where were you? when I broke her down.
Where were you? You were never around

I used to live forever with my dead loved ones in my mind.
Two become one reunited in heaven on the day we die.

But where were you? with all the johns your holding
But where were you? Kids had no chance to grow old and
But where were you? For her esophageal cancer
And where were you? no fucking answer.

Turning away. Away from the light. Turning into the night. Becoming finite.

Hate your jesus but I love you Nathan, but ill never understand why you put your faith in a church so righteously correct, that every other faith is circumspect,
(to become one)
your personal lord and savior has blinded you to all the ways to find favor
with your son of god, your synagogs, your belief that everyman is born wrong.
(Where were you?)
A god who births babies just to die, and lets parents walk around hurting inside,
Wondering if they are at all to blame, a lifetime of grief and loss and pain.
(Where were you?)
he died for all your sins, not mine. I Prefer to not wash my mind,
in holy water, your holy father, you are so blinded by those biased "scholars."
(to become one)
i know it must be so enticing, the promise of heaven, forever loving christ and
i understand you think you feel gods grace, but the life i live has finally killed my faith.

Turning away. Away from the light. Turning into the night. Becoming finite.