Mononokay

What does it mean to be happy?
And am I getting better?
I used to make excuses for myself
But it's not the weather

I've tried to rid myself
Of my anxious tendencies
But I have to accept my head for what it is to me

I'm not superhuman
Well, I'm barely alive
But I would kill to leave my house
To not be afraid of the outside

So, I started thinking
It'd be so nice
To not have trouble sleeping
I haven't slept in nights

So, I called to apologize
For every night
I told you, "I didn't want to live my life"

But I hung up
'Fore you picked up
'Cause I changed my mind

You know more about plants
Than I know about myself
And if giving up doesn't make you stronger
Then, why the hell am I still here?

Call me depressed
And tell me to get over it
It's not in my head
And it's in my blood

So, I called to apologize
For every night
I told you, "I didn't want to live my life"

But I hung up
Before you could pick up
'Cause I changed my mind

And I've gotten better
At getting better

And I've gotten better
At getting better
At being me

I've gotten better
At getting better
And I've gotten better
At being me

And I've gotten better
At getting better
And I've gotten better
At being me
At being me