Broken

I wish that I could end this
But I'm too afraid to try
Afraid to try
And I wanna scream

I feel it in my lungs
In every breath I take
In my bones, in my heart
With every smile I fake
The look of dead eyes
The fear, the lies, and this disguise
And I feel it in my blood
And it makes me numb

I wish that I could end this
But I'm too afraid to try
And I don't know what to say to you
If you wanted to know why
I wish that things were easier
But the stars are not aligned
And my heart can't survive
Pain lets me know that I'm alive

Something's surrounding me
Pulled under and I can't breathe
Reflections lie to me
I see what they don't see
The look of dead eyes
The fear, the lies and this disguise
And I feel it drowning me
And I wanna scream

I wish that I could end this
But I'm too afraid to try
And I don't know what to say to you
If you wanted to know why
I wish that things were easier
But the stars are not aligned
And my heart can't survive
Pain lets me know that I'm alive

And I was broken
But now I'm standing on my own
A new moment to begin
The scars of our past
Don't have to hold us back
But I'm addicted to the way you make me feel and
I'll never understand
You'll never understand
And I wanna scream
I wish that I could end this
But I'm too afraid to try
And I don't know what to say to you
If you wanted to know why
I wish that I could hate you
But I cannot live a lie
And my heart can't survive
My heart can't survive
I wanted to stop breathing
But I'm too afraid to die
I don't know what to say to you
If you wanted to know why
And now everyone is telling me
That I've lost my mind
And if I tried to get it back
I'm scared of what I'd find
I am broken