Doing You a Favor

about a couple minutes ago, i was fine
i have a certain way to tuck away my feelings
by pretending i don't care and showing i don't mind
and not saying a single word of what i'm thinking
'cause i feel i just think too much
so i'm scared to let you in
if i do, would you look at me the same again?
what if you think i'm as crazy as crazy gets
and all of these are running in my head
i wish that i could slow down
or maybe i'm not ready to be
a little more open for change in me
'cause i always want to fall back
whenever i feel losing you is a chance
'cause i don't want to get hurt if you push away
or when you find someone who won't be this way
so i'll be the first one to do it
before what we have right now gets ruined

believe me when i say
i'm just doing you a favor
i'd rather have you stay
as a friend and not a stranger

i always fuck things up

i know i got a problem with commitment
i'm always looking for the small things
just so i can run
i make a big deal out of all the things
that don't even matter
almost like i set myself up
and then i push away, and i feel you pushing back
and then i check myself but it's too late for all of that
by the time that i explain, you already feel like you're not wanted
now i'm trying to tell you I'm the problem
and then we start to fight
and then we start to think this isn't right
now all i want to do is say i'm sorry and good night
'cause the last thing that i want is for you to feel you're at fault
when i know it's really me, me and all of my walls
i feel you losing patience and i don't blame you
i'm the one that you should point the blame to
you deserve somebody that'll meet your needs
and that'll only make you happy and that isn't me