Now I Don't

I ran to the second floor closet
Frantic, in search of my coat
By the time I'd returned to the living room
You had removed all your clothes

You undressed
Were out of character
Wearing a smile, timidly
I'd forgotten where I had to be

I awoke late and ran for the bus, missed it
Took a cab, then took a train
Pushed my way through the streets of Manhattan
Through the crowd of a New Year's parade

You were cold
And seeming unfeeling
You shied from my hand on your knee
Where we two part in a parking garage
You left with a kiss on my cheek

I was speaking
Or maybe just staring
At nothing after my one call
Those I reached claimed that I seemed to be
One with god
Or likely no one at all

I still recall when my head hit the dashboard
My first time embraced by the dark
Now I sit 'til my eyes can't stay open
My head hits the pillow
I'm gone

I returned from the second floor closet
The weather demanded no coat
Stood alone in the living room thinking of
Someone that I used to know

In that place where the light shines infrequently
I could once see, now I don't
I thought this room was our room
But you left me in search of your own