Hard to Say Goodbye

I don't think you understand
the feeling that I get inside
When I see your cursive handwriting
it's like you're still alive
I laugh and then I smile
It takes a while before I sink
It's like a part of you is still among us
sunk in to the ink
I write you on a sheet
let my pen float like a river
I catch my thoughts in passing
let it dry of on the paper

Memories are fading
since we no longer communicate
The silent treatments torturous
was I the one who thought you this
Sorry for the times I locked the door
shut you out

Left the house without a word
I know the shit has kept you up
I woke up in the hospital
had finally had enough
And that's about the time
I took to hear you out bout stuff

I had Million Questions pinching inside of my skull
Inside instincts insisted I invite you for a talk
Remember raising questions
as to what your biggest dreams were

Your reply included me
doing what I dream for
and that's about the time I packed my bags
and moved away

To go to collage, I acknowlege
got some knowlege on my way
And if it taught me something
It's that anything can happen
Any day can be the first
Any day can be the last

Any day can be the best and any day can make you hurt
I'v been putting in the hours
best be with it in the end
Because I'm hanging loose but sitting tight
Realize that I did it might have
spent a few years in silence just to make it over night

Hard to say goodbye
when the time flew us by
Reaching for the stars
see light in the sky
I can't reach far so I keep you close
I try to hide it off but it often shows
Hard to say goodbye
when the time flew us by
Reaching for the stars
see light in the sky
I can't reach far so I keep you close
I try to hide it off but it often shows
It's been a year now
and things are looking better
since I had the time
I took the time
to write a letter
and even tho I can't stick a postage stamp and send it
I hope I sing this high enough for heaven gates to hear it
You see what I've been tryin' to do
is to make you proud
Just sorry you can't witness
when I stand before the crowd
i'm sticking by the words
knowing damn well what I promised you
You told me I could and
I told you I would make it trough
You said put in the hours
and the affort ain't for nothing
and now all of a sudden I'm in the competition
No doubt I'm feeling nervous
like I'm staring at a gun
I got Nikes on my feet but it's too late for me to run
and if I were to run my fate is all that I am running from
My fight is with myself
I swing for chances as they come
been giving it my all
but it doesn't make me #1
may not have reached yet
I'll write you when I'm done
Hard to say goodbye
when the time flew us by
Reaching for the stars
see light in the sky
I can't reach far so I keep you close
I try to hide it off but it often shows
Hard to say goodbye
when the time flew us by
Reaching for the stars
see light in the sky
I can't reach far so I keep you close
I try to hide it off but it often shows
Can't reach far so I keep you close
I try to hide it off but it often shows
Can't reach far so I keep you close
I try to hide it off but it often shows