Lonely Christmas

You pray to god for Christmas for a man
Then I showed up and took your hand
You've been through a lot so you're real sharp
I had to come correct and have a plan
Seemed like a mirror me and you
Same zodiac if you think this ain't true
Both educated from the hood
Anything goin' down my back is good

I try to plan the holidays so my mind's been zonin'
But you think something else
Has been ongoing
So now you wanna go
Go all through my phone
But you're making make-belief
I turned them round', yo
Wish I could hear your voice
But I can't cause' I don't have a choice
Wish I could call your phone
But I can't, we supposed to leave it alone
Wish I could rewind the time
Stop all that (??)
Wish I could tell you how I feel
It's gonna be a lonely Christmas
It's gonna be lonely
I'm gonna be alone
It's gonna be lonely
I'm gonna be alone
It's gonna be lonely
I'm gonna be alone
It's gonna be lonely
I'm gonna be alone

You never wanted me to meet you dock apart, you said
I wouldn't like the way that you behave
I didn't mean to be a trigger on your brain
No shotgun showed up and started throwing things
I kept thinking there was something I could've done
To keep it cool so you didn't run
So how (??) without you in my world
You really were the one, yeah

I try to plan the holidays so my mind's been zonin'
But you think something else
Has been ongoing
So now you wanna go
Go all through my phone
But you're making make-belief
I turned them round', yo
Wish I could hear your voice
But I can't cause' I don't have a choice
Wish I could call your phone
But I can't, we supposed to leave it alone
Wish I could rewind the time
Stop all that (??)
Wish I could tell you how I feel
It's gonna be a lonely Christmas
It's gonna be lonely
I'm gonna be alone
It's gonna be lonely
I'm gonna be alone
It's gonna be lonely
I'm gonna be alone
It's gonna be lonely
I'm gonna be alone
It's gonna be lonely
I'm gonna be alone
It's gonna be lonely
I'm gonna be alone
It's gonna be lonely
I'm gonna be alone
It's gonna be lonely
I'm gonna be alone

You can throw shit around
You can tear up the place
I know it sounds kinda wild
But I just wanna see your face
You can throw shit around
You can tear up the place
I know it sounds kinda wild
But I just wanna see your face

Ho-oh-oh
Ho-oh-oh
Ho-oh-oh
Ho-oh-oh
Ho-oh-oh
Ho-oh-oh
Ho-oh-oh
Ho-oh-oh
This Christmas