August (Part Two)

I'm gonna chisel away at this rock until I get the shape that I want
And then I'm gonna continue to chisel it
'Cause that's what I do when I find myself in a new relationship
'Cause I remember when this started out as mud mixed with water that turned to clay
And I watched it break and break and look more like the image I wanted to make
It's pathetic, I know but it's all anyone ever gave
'Cause I was born a virgin covered in blood and free of sin
And that's the exact shape I wanna make when I jump off this bridge

I'm tired of trying to be something that I can't be
And I'm tired of fighting for something that I can't see
I'm finding new life in every regret and finding regrets in everything I forget
And the second I'm at peace I'm thrown off by my need to make everything complete
'Cause I'm a sucker for the rule of 3's

You hurt me and I hurt you but when I hurt you something needs to happen to give me some sort closure
And I'm sorry for this poor posture, I just can't stand up straight and take this like a man today
I'm too broken and there's so many things I want to say if only you would listen

And I'll put my fingers in the door so when I close it on you, maybe I'll hurt a little bit too
I'll put my fingers in the door so when I close it on you, I'll hurt a little bit too
Because the only reason I held on to you was because I felt I had nothing left
And the deeper I carve into this rock, I'm realizing it's not gonna fit into the shape I want
So I quit
'Cause I've always been afraid to fall in love
'Cause there's something about falling that just doesn't sound worth it

And I've said it before and I'll say it again
It was problematic at best because you beckoned me and you lessened me
And no other love would accommodate my blindfold so easily
But now I can see, now I can see

God, I gave you all of my love but I can't see past this hurt
God, I gave you all of my love so now what do I give to her?

God, I gave you all of my love, I just can't see past this hurt
God, I gave you all of my love, so what am I supposed to give to her?

God, I gave you all of my love, I just can't see past this hurt
God, I gave you all of my love so what am I supposed to give to her?

'Cause I'm terrified, I'm terrified but I've never felt so alive

I'm terrified, I'm terrified but I've never, I've never felt so alive, I've never felt so alive