Black Rainbows

yeah on the day
that i was born there was a black rainbow
then all the way
that i have come it's followed me back home
there's all the miles
that i have spent under the blank sunshine
there's all the times
that i have stared ahead, buried alive

so i kept running
threw my hands to the wind
lost but hoping that someday
you could hold me again
that the clouds would open up
lift away from my sights
that the rain would cover us
and we'd fall
get lost in the light

be my control
be my demise
be my one true love left
be my resolve
be my disguise
be my whole use, confessed
please loneliness
feels like i'm close
like you're a ghost sometimes
fluorescent mess
what i miss most
is what i won't survive

so i kept running
bent my plans to the sun
felt the ground
came into focus
saw who i'd become
spun a thousand points of luck
in the starkness of night
there's the break in all of us
where the darkness comes for the light ...