Black Veil of Fail

You're cancer free and sun drenched in your heart
The fleets and the parts in your command
they're sent back
and then they were long years and soft rains
we tried to abstain,
our letters remained unuttered

and you overslept
names are still cancelled
and names are avenged

this is the fact
that grabs and flies and explodes in your way
it's not a maze
it drops and coughs and implodes in your face

the black veil of fail, the black veil of fail

and then you said: "don't forget the success of everyone else,
always includes failed attempts"
this is the fact
that grabs and flies and explodes in your way
it's not a maze
it drops and coughs and implodes in your face
the black veil of fail, the black veil of fail.

but why can't i figure it out for myself?
all of my efforts lead up to defect
and the success of others just makes me kneel
unable to act straight or even think clear

all heavy sleeps with sweaty pillows in heat
a life of failures condensed in a dream