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Spending Friday night alone, I'm reading campus fratboy porn
Strewn on the table for my roommate when he finally gets home
But just one night ago, three flights ago, I'm back in Michigan
Another trip I won't remember, appreciate much when I'm dead, oh

And the hotel where I slept that night was surely haunted, then
Because every hour I woke up feeling so watched and wanted
And I think I remember that from when we met
Which feels so insignificant, or maybe odd now to admit, it's all in retrospect, oh

And so, I spent the winter bundled up, pretending I was sane
And giving up the things I love the most because they felt like pain
And it's so obvious, this jaded bunch
We don't believe in ghosts and such
We watch the hunt incredulous, but cannot look away

And you looked at me like I was a piece of meat
So, I was a piece of meat for a time

But you were a vegetarian, so I became a vegetarian
Then when you started eating meat, I also started eating meat
And I lied to all my friends, said I was happy when I wasn't
And you lied to all your selves, said I could give you what you wanted
But it all feels so much bigger than some blame-filled lonely break up like all our narratives and mortality only distill to

Oh my God, we're gonna die
We're gonna die, maybe it's gonna be alone
We're gonna die, maybe it's gonna be alone, and no one will find the things we left behind

Because
Because we
Because we never thought to leave a fucking archive