Letter to My Ol' Dude

I miss you like a mufucka
But I'll shoot you a few words, you hear me

This letter to my ol' dude
I just wanna update you on the latest news
And kinda tell you how my life been going up and down
I know you up in the sky lookin' down, lookin' down

Its been a minute since we kicked it, I don't know where to start
But I'ma grab this paper and pen and write with my heart
At first, I ain't understanding I'm like why he leaving
Remember that night so vivid
Buy you Adidas
I lost my mufuckin' man after that
Didn't know how to handle my feelings, so I start puttin' them in raps
That's where it all started

Never thought you'd be gone by the time I got retarded
First they took New New then Goose Mojos next
Now I'm strapped tellin' niggas watch they neck
Still aiming for a letter, so I put these words together
Tryin' to find my way in this cold lonely world
Had a baby boy but I couldn't witness his birth
I was looked up in that cell so my feelings was hurt
Couldn't bless him with my presents
So I blessed him with presents
Every time I go to church, it's like I'm beefing with reverends

This letter to my ol' dude
I just wanna update you on the latest news
And kinda tell you how my life been going up and down
I know you up in the sky lookin' down, lookin' down
This letter to my ol' dude
I just wanna update you on the latest news
And kinda tell you how my life been going up and down
I know you up in the sky lookin' down, lookin' down

Every time I see your friends, they say you look like your daddy
I got the world on my shoulders I been stressin' so heavy
This lifestyle that I'm living
Your nephew back in prison
Your sisters doing cool
Both of the girls they in school
Lil' bros they doin' a'ight
They just need a little push
That's why I'm out here rapping so they won't take the path I took
Tryin' not to go back to prison

I wanna hear my momma mouth and John doing all right
Just dropped him off from robbing house
Just doing what I got, I had to take care of a few things
Grandma, grandad still doin' they same routine
Some days I wish you was here so I could hug you
I respectively so much that women love you
Been out of prison six months
Just enjoying my freedom
Your grandson, a handful I wish you could meet him
I wish you could see me, I got bands and shit
Plus we really doing music we got fans and shit

This letter to my ol' dude
I just wanna update you on the latest news
And kinda tell you how my life been going up and down
I know you up in the sky lookin' down, lookin' down
This letter to my ol' dude
I just wanna update you on the latest news
And kinda tell you how my life been going up and down
I know you up in the sky lookin' down, lookin' down

Toya like a sister to me out here
Just live Ilene talking to uncle
You know what I'm sayin'
Kiv, Wayne, Foon
I love you
P.S I'ma man now

This letter to my ol' dude
I just wanna update you on the latest news
And kinda tell you how my life been going up and down
I know you up in the sky lookin' down, lookin' down
This letter to my ol' dude
I just wanna update you on the latest news
And kinda tell you how my life been going up and down
I know you up in the sky lookin' down, lookin' down