Only God Knows Why

I've been sitting here trying to find myself
I get behind myself, I need to rewind myself
Looking for the payback, listen for the playback
They say that every man bleeds just like me

And I feel like number one yet I'm last in line
I watch my youngest son and it helps to pass the time
I take too many pills that helps to ease the pain
I made a couple dollar bills, but still I feel the same

Everybody knows my name, they say it way out loud
A lot of folks fuck with me, it's hard to hang out in crowds
I guess that's the price you pay to be some big shot like I am
Outstretched hands and one night stands
Still I can't find love

And when your walls come tumbling down
I will always be around

People don't know about the things I say and do
They don't understand about the shit that I've been through
It's been so long since I've been home
I've been gone, I've been gone for way too long

Maybe I've forgotten all the things I miss
Oh, somehow I know there's more to life than this
I've said it too many times and I still stand firm
You get what you put in and people get what they deserve

Still I ain't seen mine, no I ain't seen mine
I've been givin', just ain't been gettin'
I've been walkin' that thin line
So I think I'll keep walking with my head held high

I keep moving on and only God knows why
Only God, Only God, Only God knows why