Grapefruit

Hey, Holy Ghost, why'd you leave me? Where'd you go?
I know we ain't spoke in so long, but I've gotta know, if I'm alone.
If I start drinking, I'm gonna be the town drunk.
You always said I should lighten up,
I'm gonna lighten up. I'm gonna lighten up.

So long. I'm sorry that I wasn't who you want.
If I can't make you happy, I'm no good for anyone.
So long. I'm sorry that I wasn't who you you'd want.
If I cant make you love me.

I shut you out,
After the funeral, mired in doubt.
You thought a family would help.
I was struggling. You could tell.
When we got the news,
That you were pregnant,
We painted a room,
Pink and orange like a grapefruit.
I know how bad you wanted this too.
I know it killed you.

In all my dreams, I'm in the house that I grew up in.
I'm trying to be half the man I know my dad is, or was.
I see me as a father looking over a daughter,
Who grew up to be just like you
And now, that's just a thread I can't hold onto.
It's just an open wound.

So long. I'm sorry that I wasn't who you want.
If I can't make you happy, I'm no good for anyone.
So long. I'm sorry that I wasn't who you'd want.
If I cant make you love me.

Hey, Holy Ghost,
Why'd you leave me? Where'd you go?
Right when I fucking need you,
I'm all alone. I'm all alone.

So, I'll start drinking.
Yeah, I'll be the town drunk.
I'll be a burden on everyone.