Bonsai

Do you remember when I stayed at your place
You lying on the bed whilst I slept on my face
And on evenings when I had some hash
You had no papers so we ate the stash
And then you smiled back and we held so tight
Hiding in the back room as we flew like kites
That's when I found out that I love you
So I left my woman to be with you

Did you like it when I kissed your neck
Was it tears on the bedsheets, was it beads of sweat
Did you want me on the way up the stairs
Sneaking up silently when no one was there
And did you miss me when I was away
Counting up the hours 'til the end of the day
We used to talk late 'til the beams of sun
Through the fire damaged curtains lit the pictures you hung

That was way back, and things have changed
Your feelings for me have all been rearranged
Your emotions come at an infrequent rate
When I'm lying in bed they're always fashionably late
You don't love me. Said you never could now
Smiling to yourself you say it's for my own good
You don't need me and my purpose is done
So take your seats as I begin to run

I can see now the relief in your face
Sail on by me and I drown in your wake
For too long now you took all I got
Put on your make up I'll continue to rot
I think you like it when I weep and wail
My heart's in prison but you can't afford bail
And the kites that we could've been are
Only as free as a length of string

All the times that you weren't there
Trying to avoid me, tell me you care
All you feel now is sorry for me
But you can't even give me your sympathy
There's nothing left now and you feel just fine
For me it's winter, you think it's Christmas time
Well goodbye then and I know you'll forget
That it wasn't your tears but your beads of sweat