Song About Why I Suck

before if i fucked up anything i only hurt me
id never hurt anyone but now there are real people
my actions are fact and i can not stand it
i cannot handle it
i smoke to much weed
and watch to much tv
i always run out of cigarettes
i lie about everything
this used to be me but now its feeling stale and friendly
and i hate what ive become
but i never been so proud of what ive achieved
and i steal from my friends
this is how i will tell them
but sometimes im broke
and when i am ill do anything
but its no excuse cause none of us have a thing
be you were all honest i self a grandiose my own bullshit
borrow money for food, and i spend it on booze
an eat bread from the dumspter
and use anything that i can use
to block out my thoughts
quiet my brain
i still jump when the pain comes

and i hate what ive become
but i never been so proud what ive achieved

and i just want my parents to think that im clever
and excuse my lifestyle but my lifestyle has become an excuse
formed out of habit
and i just want my friends to know that ill never fuck them around again
cause people are everything
and i sing these songs
to sing up with the straglers
and i sing these songs because nothing else matters
and i sing these songs out of fury and fear
and i sing these songs cause without them i wouldnt be here
with you