I Held Her in My Arms

I'm gnawing on the knowledge that I have been burnt
I'm learning things that I should've already learned
Everyone I ever knew was so kind and coy
I was with a girl, but it felt like it was with a boy

I can't even remember if we were lovers
Or if I just wanted to
But I held her in my arms, I held her in my arms
I held her in my arms, but it wasn't you

I will not kill the one thing that I love
In this world of wreckage, I look above
Said, help me, Lord, help me understand
What it means to be a boy, what it means to be a man

I can't even remember if we were lovers
Or if I just wanted to
But I held her in my arms, I held her in my arms
I held her in my arms, but it wasn't you

I'm gnawing on the knowledge that I have been burnt
I'm learning things that I should've already learned
Everyone I ever knew was so kind and coy
I was with a girl, but it felt like it was with a boy

I can't even remember if we were lovers
Or if I just wanted to
But I held her in my arms, I held her in my arms
I held her in my arms, but it wasn't you

I can't even remember if we were lovers
Or if I just wanted to
I held her in my arms, I held her in my arms
I held her in my arms, but it wasn't you