Desperate Plea From The Heart Of A Shit-Head

I find myself lost
For the first time
And all of the moments I had to myself
Are now spent picturing you
But I am not cross
And this ain't a goodbye
I am convinced that you one day will realize
The pain that you're putting me through

Yeah I worked on a farm
Met a girl with a charm and a stable
We laughed all the time
Drank our cranberry wine in a fable
And our lips tasted sweet
And I loved her as much as I was able
But I could not fall
When I'd recall

How when you and I walked down the street
The sky took itself round our heads
And all of the people we'd meet
Come to laughin the story we said
And I just don't know when this will happen again

If you are not set intractably forward
With you cool boyfriend your job and your home
It's a five hour trip if you fly
You can come live with me
Down here in the basement
It's cold in the winter, wet in the summer
But I know that we could get by

Cause I went into town met a girl in a gown at a bar
She was smart, talked about art
Drank her champagne and ate caviar
We made love in the back
Of her stretch cadillac fancy car
But I could not fall

When I'd recall

How when you and I figured it out
The time was just space for our breath
And we'd tangle and spiral and soar
Past the trees that all swayed round our heads
And I just don't know when this will happen again

If I could just say
I know I'm a shithead
I know it was me that went off and left you
But I was just anxious and dumb
I don't know what I've learned
I still march to a dyslexic drummer
Maybe I just needed some time to myself
To write all the songs that I've sung

Yeah I've travelled throughout
This whole world lived without and within
Read newspapers and books
Learned how heroes and crooks lose and win
I even tried me some drugs, and I still ain't found love
Then again
I start to fall when I recall

You and I standing alone
With the glowing sun closing its eyes
As we'd melt into one in the dark
And make our own mountains and skies
And my beat up guitar sounds like rain
As it pours out the soul of the world
Which is filled with regrets and mistakes
And the hearts of a fella and girl

And it all breathes in time to this song
And flashes of blistering red
It will find you wherever you are
And wrap itself round both our heads
And I just don't know when this will happen again