If Only

Where have you gone, old friend, lately?
Just a boy in a suit
So much joy to pursue
Have you left me here waiting to grow up on my own?
On this road, all alone?
I am a desert of unfulfilled memories
Skeletal pictures of that which will never be.
What it is we dream.
Lost in the thoughts of what never was,
A child in the storm of madness because death calls,
Unspoken, unseen.
If only we hadn't listened
To ambitions that were far beyond our reach.
If only there was a way
To take back yesterday
You'd still be here with me.
Why, oh, why
Oh, why, oh, why.
If only
You were a second late
To dream about yesterday.
Why, oh, why
Oh, why, did I?
If only
You never came for me.
Where have you gone, Willow, lately?
Just a girl in a dress
With the world to impress.
This morning I could feel the changes.
Shadows on the wall,
Laughing as we fall.
All of my moments are fractured behind me,
The toy of a girl that shattered inside of me,
All before I said,
"I do."
And why does the silence simulate violence
The cold and the quiet screams in defiance.
Where did I misstep?
Where did I lose?
If only I had listened
To the voices telling me to take it slow.
If only
I had known.
Would I have chosen another road?
Oh, if only I could let go.
Why, oh, why,
Oh, why, oh, why.
If only.
If only I could be home.
Oh, why, oh, why.
If only.
If only.
If only I had never gotten a letter.
If only I had never wanted for better.
If only I didn't stay up at night and miss you.
If only I didn't feel like I feel when I'm with you.
If only I was never lonely,
And felt the city calling my name.
If only I was never lonely.
If only I never came.
Why?
Why?
Why, oh, why,
Oh, why, oh, why.
If only
I never fell in love with you.
If only.
If only.