Half Life

You use your words
They fill my cup
I scratch them off
As they come up
And after years of this game
The list has slowly worn down
There's only two that remain
It's something that we don't talk about
It's so close to your name
I'm so far from you now
Would you see me the same
If I said it out loud
When you're two hours late and upside down

And though I want to
I'm not ready
Oh my heart is saying yes
But my mind tells me not yet
And though I want to
I'm not ready
Oh yeah, I want to
But am I ready?
And I wonder what it's like
To control this half life
Oh yeah, I want to
But am I ready?

If I had it all
What would I gain?
I'd sit at your table
Do it every day
To name an integral part
Of what I want to be true
If you can't have the star
You know it's not the fault of the moon
Oh these years have been hard
But we'll understand soon
Taking care through the dark
There's no way I can lose
When it's time to start to be like you

And though I want to
I'm not ready
Oh my heart is saying yes
But my mind tells me not yet
And though I want to
I'm not ready
Oh yeah, I want to
But am I ready?
And I wonder is it right
To restore this half life
Oh yeah, I want to
But am I ready?
So I'll leave it to you first