Haze

How much do you remember about those summers we spent together?
'Cause I don't seem to be able to recall
All those things I thought that I'd miss
Your perfume and your sun kissed skin
Turns out they meant nothing all along

I was haunted by the emptiness that filled the hole you left
A grave I still can't bring myself to visit yet
Though I won't be losing sleep, I still refuse to forget
It took me so long to admit we were dead
But we were dead

You buried it in the backyard of a house that we built with our bare hands
Where you said we'd grow old together
I felt safe there
I knew every crooked frame and every creaking stair
I could have stayed my whole fucking life
But time, it was never a friend of mine

I got so scared that I disappeared into my head for eight lonely years
And it killed me, but it hurt you too, and I'm sorry, I'm sorry
But you weren't there when I needed you most
And it felt like I was a ghost of someone you used to love
But I was never enough to save us

Are you happy? Are you happy?
Are you happy? Are you happy?
So tell me, is it serious between you and him?
I hope to God that he makes you happy

I hope I never hear your name again
Now the home we made is nothing more than a house
Where we fucked and we ate, but never fell in love
You're sleeping in the bed we made, with somebody else

Are you happy?
Are you fucking happy?

I got so scared that I disappeared into my head for eight lonely years
And it killed me, but it hurt you too, and I'm sorry, I'm sorry