It Wasn't Love

She could sense that is was morning
As she opened up her eyes
And for a moment it eluded her
Who she was lying there beside
There were two strong arms around her
She'd forgot how nice that was
It wasn't bad
But it wasn't love

So she gathered her belongings
And quietly slipped out the door
It was a well rehearsed procedure
That she had been through times before
And in the cold, grey light of morning
She found her way back home
To the same place she had run from
When she couldn't stand being alone

And she cursed herself for doing that again
She hadn't wanted another lover
All she'd needed was a friend
But sometimes just when you need them
Friends aren't around
So she picked one man's spirits up
And let herself down

She felt bad for the man she'd been with
He'd always been pretty good to her
But there was just no future in it
Of that much she was sure
There was an emptiness inside her
She couldn't seem to rise above
It wasn't bad
But it would never be love

So she closed her eyes and let her mind
Slip back through the years
To a time when she'd been happy
To a time when he'd been here
She'd only given her heart out once
And it had never been returned
And for all she'd done to move ahead
That pain inside still burned.

And she cursed herself for doing that again
She hadn't wanted another lover
All she'd needed was a friend
But sometimes just when you need them
Friends aren't around
So she picked one man's spirits up
And let herself down

There were days she really hated him
For leaving her this way
And there were days when she'd give anything
If only he could have stayed
And she wondered if she'd ever find
What it took to try again
Was the happiness love offered her
Ever worth risking this pain

And she cursed herself for thinking that again
She hadn't wanted another lover
All she'd needed was a friend
But sometimes just when you need them
Friends aren't around
So she picked one man's spirits up
But let herself down
She picked one man's spirits up
And let herself down